New Years Resolutions

So lets just get this angsty part over with.

I've gone through a lot this year, given my small mental capacity for life's dark side.

For starters, the boy ( not a man, as I previously had hoped) that I thought was my soul mate turned out to be a total louse and I'm still dealing with the pain. Some friends are not who I thought they were. My family has experienced several great losses, as well as personal insults from people ( one person, actually) we thought we could trust and respect.

The list goes on too long and too deep. Out of respect for those involved, I can't divulge too many details. I just thought it would be best to explain myself to some degree.

The good news out of all of this is that it has motivated me to try harder to actually achieve my dreams. Sure, my main drive so far has been bitterness and hatred, but at least some good is coming of it I suppose. Hopefully I can find a better motivator in 2011...

But seriously, I don't want to start of my New Year full of hate and pain. I know I can't change what happened or how I feel, but I can start making positive changes to my life while time makes things feel less fresh. Really, things are already starting to feel a little better now that a month or so has passed.

So far, its been a struggle to do the bare minimum when I NEED to be going above and beyond the call of duty. I need more motivation, and I have no idea why I have none.

So here is my list. It's a pretty tall order for me, because it requires me to actually start trying from now on. But I think if I stick to it, I can turn things around.

1) Drink more green tea and less coffee

I've accepted it. I'm addicted to coffee. And not in a funny, quirky way like Lorelei from Gilmore Girls. In the 'I get UTIs and sinus infections because I'm not properly hydrated' sort of way. Which affects my ability to perform at my highest level, like I need to be doing now.

2) Start Knitting

Knitting is supposed to be therapeutic, yes? And its also practical! With all the books and yarn I got for Christmas, I should be spitting out scarves,hats and other fun things like mad in no time.

3) sketch more

no really this time. I've been artistically congested for so long. I don't know what is holding me back, but I'm going to forcibly remove it by allotting time each day in which I require myself to sketch.

4) Work out for 30 minutes every day.

Just because I'm skinny doesn't mean I'm in good health. Who knows when my metabolism is going to slow down. I need to start treating myself better, overall.

5) Craft and Experiment more

I think this is moderately self explanatory. Part of my inspiration problem, I suppose. I need to do more with my hands. Thats what she said.

6)Wake up before 10AM. Go to bed before Midnight.

This is probably the hardest resolution to keep. I have been waking up at anytime between 11-1 this week and its really pathetic. I'm loosing so much day! I need to fix my sleep schedule before school starts or I will be in for a rude awakening. Teehee. Get it.

So that is my list for the main part. I threw a non-alcoholic party with the theme of '12 year olds birthday'. This means balloons, board games and lots of food. It was also lots of fun.

The balloons scared my cats. It was funny.

HAPPY NEW YEARS ER'Y BODY!